Thursday, May 03, 2012
i'm back after so long! i just came back from the Thai Plum Village's Wake Up retreat 2012, and i had so much joy and wonderful times there! ^_^ it was a very different and nice experience for me. it was my 1st time going for any retreat, and i had a great time. everything in daily lives can be a form of meditating!
the brothers and sisters were great! i have to say that i really got close to them and it was very comfortable to be around them, even if they were monks. we could still talk, thou i will always bear in mind to keep my distance :P
i got really close to my dharma family's sister, but sadly, i forgot her name :( my dharma family of flowery path was also great! though we took 2 days to warm up and on the last day, we were hugging each other and was so sad to leave! we cried tears of laughter and sadness together, had fun together, and shared our sufferings!
the most memorable times for me was the last day. after lunch, all of us had a little talk, which made many cried, including me. after which, the monks and male lay-friends formed an inner circle, the nuns and female lay-friends formed and out circle, and everyone had their hands either on each other, or held each other's hands, and we started to sing! well, i was too slow to get a picture of that though, and the nuns jokingly laughed at me for being too slow.. haha!!! well, i was the one who called our sister nuns into the circle to join us, for i saw them standing outside, and i wanted them to be with us too! they ran in, very gladly, held our hands, and sang with us. anyone there could have easily felt the love :) i wanted the singing to go on, but well, all good things must come to an end so yeah, it had to end... letting go of the hands and the hugs were not easy, and it was not easy to say goodbye... friends cried, nuns cried, and even the monks cried! imagine the monastics crying as well... it was a very heart-warming scene. i guess it was because we all embraced each other with love from the very 1st day without any discrimination, so on the last day, we all saw attachment to this love, and was unwilling to let it go, especially the girls from the house of compassion, they were the main reason why so many cried... i will say, i'll want to go again next year :)
Our great big family of 5 days :)
^_^ hAn pINg @ 5/03/2012 05:03:00 PM | Comment
Saturday, December 10, 2011
ahhhh dusty here huh???
anyways, nothing much.. life's ok la :P
and...
Chun Ying Shifu! HELLO! ^_^ hahaha!!! Its amazing you found my blog. Haha! We're all fine in Singapore. Well, health conditions maybe a little less than fine for me, since i fell ill quite several times :P My heart condition has improved loads thou, with me eating the tibetian medicine. It has really helped a lot and i hardly have any pain or discomfort now :) Shifu has also brought me to see the Chinese doctor in KL, so he's helping to fine tune my body too :)
I've also officially ended my studies for my degree course and have scored pretty well for my last exam ^_^ I was stressed out so much by my exams previously that i broke down really badly. But it turned out that i scored the best for the paper that i cried the most.
Take care Shifu and see you around April or May ^_^
^_^ hAn pINg @ 12/10/2011 09:50:00 AM | Comment
Monday, August 22, 2011
i'm so happy! i dreamt that eun hyuk celebrated my birthdya with me ^_^
well, it's juz a dream, and it'll only 4ever be a dream...
^_^ hAn pINg @ 8/22/2011 11:07:00 AM | Comment
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
it has been a long long time... i haf good news 2 share!
1) my heart condition has gotten better and tis on the road 2 recovery ^_^
2) i woke up today from my late morning nap 2 realise that i can now face life well, in the sense, i've FINALLY gotten over my 2 to 3 ex-good-friends... somehow, i juz knew, i've gotten over, and i'm much more happier ^_^ the past is the past, and so, who needs 2 cares so much?! juz grow and learn!!! ^_^
and sooooo....
Linda ang! i forgive u for all the hurt you've ever caused me! cya ard! :)
to jonathan and desmond, thanks for helping me grow up! hope we can still remain friends! ^_^
well, thanks 2 all my best buddies who were 4ever there for me 2 listen! thanks man!!!! ^_^
^_^ hAn pINg @ 5/24/2011 09:58:00 PM | Comment
Saturday, March 12, 2011
这几天日本发生了许多地震以及海啸。。。听到一则又一则的新闻，我第一次感到如此的心痛，如此的难过。我有哭，而且，一开始哭就很难停下来。。。愿大家都能平安无事，世界每个角落都无灾难，大家都能平平安安的过日子。我不要求一定要快乐，但至少有地方可以住，有食物能吃，有水能喝，有医药能治，这样就够了。求求您了，佛菩萨！
hmm juz updates bahz... was hospitalized last last week... well, heart rate was 118 per min... at hospital, everything was normal, so doc send me home saying she can't do anything -_- well, i'm now on my way 2 recovery, having less pains.. i believe i'll be ok SOON ^_^ but the disasters these days have showed that my pain is nothing.. learning the new showered me with even more pain... it hurts..
^_^ hAn pINg @ 3/12/2011 11:20:00 PM | Comment
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
i lost sleep le... was it a good choice 2 take the initiative? was it a good choice to set a trap, and now that the trao has turned ard and bite my own hands... i felt happy, but at the same time, scared, worried and even a little sad... how how how???!!! i've been dreaming non-stop, and missing non stop as well...... :(
^_^ hAn pINg @ 1/26/2011 01:44:00 PM | Comment
Thursday, January 20, 2011
i dreamt of him once again.. again, it was sweet dream.. but this time round, there was also sadness in the dream. he bought his gf along to our gathering... i couldn't stop crying... he was close to me, yes, but his gf was there as well, so how much could i even step 4ward? his gf was afriad of me, cos she say i looked fierce.. he ignored her and i had 2 go coax her.. how nice of me huh? how cum i still can't 4get him till this day.. why... :'(
^_^ hAn pINg @ 1/20/2011 10:39:00 AM | Comment
